the night.

akak pearl :)

marissa edwin :)

pemandu tidak berhemah. HAHA *puke*

had fun with you guys eh? *wink*

weekends in sarawak.

while waiting for the movie, we played this thing. i don't know what they call it. :)

miss pearl and me. :) she is feakin tall wehhh HAHAHA

againn.. meet pearl :) we had fun!

tadaaaa. :)

candid taken by pearl :) mengada tak ada keje kann..

our love balloon :) <3

my saviour :) meet pearl && yana. i had fun with u guys. awesome!

something about us.

i don't know what's got into me these days. really. my emotional is really unstable. i wish that someone knew what is wrong with me. i get mad easily. i cursed. i say things that i don't really remember. i say things i will regret. & the saddest part is i say things that can hurt others. especially him. i am so sorry for my disrespect towards you baby. i really don't know why i acted without any thinking. i say bad words. i am not that type of girl. you know it!

BUT,
baby i need you to know that i am human. i am just a simple girl with flaws. my moods don't always stay the same. i need you to understand that. maybe those littlest thing that u don't know about me. these days i guess i need a little extra attention. especially from YOU. but baby i know u are going through stuff.& im sorry for the way i acted. i haven't been a supportive girlfriend to you. i have been very very selfish. maybe the situation that we face now makes me stupid and selfish. i should be blamed for all this. baby, i just need you to hold on for a little while. please go through it with me. and for god sake, i don't have anyone else! seriously i don't! you have your right to think bad about me but believe me. i only have you!

you must have been thinking that the LOVE is not there anymore. for me, it's always there. it's always been you. it's just that, the situation dragged me into hole that i don't even wanna be at. like i said, i need you to hold on. this is temporary baby! soon it will be over. i promise you.

my love,
maybe this is our challenged. take it and go through it. we will survive. i assure you. we both have issues right now. i understand that. because of that, i think we need to take a time apart. we need time to reinvent ourselves. to know who we really are. i have become someone i don't wanna be. i am disappointed at myself. so, i need time. i know you need time on your own too. sometimes, we need to just listen. one more thing, sayang tolong jangan samakan i dengan emma. i can't bear to hear her name. because some part of me saying you still love her. im sorry for all the wrong doings. it hurts me to hear such things baby. if only u could read everything that i wrote, you would know me even better. find a way to know me well my love. i need you to do it!

i thought distance isn't a barrier for us. but i am totally wrong. it is something for us. i can't be far away from you. maybe because you complete me. despite everything, i love you so much sayang!
you are my whole heart! always have, always will be! :)

sakit nya awakk!

Mon, March 15, 2010 5:38:44 AM
Re: meet up this week?
From:
naem aliff Add to Contacts
To:
Sweety wilkerson
hye sweety..i'm so sorry..now i'm late to read ur msg...rite..?so..sorry again..
so how r u sweety..?ermm..where r u now..?

From: Sweety wilkerson To: Sweetywilkerson380@gmx.comSent: Fri, February 5, 2010 7:03:54 PMSubject: meet up this week?
Hey you.. how u been? remember me from IM.Live ?? hope this is still your email addy :) so guess what? im moving RIGHT near ya in 10 days! Wanna hang out? Im single now too.. i attached my pic incase u forgot about me.. add me on messenger.. i dont use emial much. IM online now.. add me - I prefer A.I,M ---> Y-A_HO-O - grensasi & A_I-M - chanelhiphop

what i should feel?

okay. first of all, i'm fucking hurt right now. i just pretend that it didn't happen. but it did!

imagine if you found out that ur boyfriend send this to someone random. how would you feel?

#random girl 1

thanks ya..

u hot..!

how r u?

n u have ym or msn?

#random girl 2

Wednesday, 7 April, 2010 3:08:28 AM

hye...

u have msn..

ehehe...

bored lorh...

FYI, 7th april is not that long. i was on my finals. damn! sakit sgt tahu tak? u xnk i fikir bukan2 tp knp u buat? i trusted u! plus, i never know u have msn! fuckk!

dear, if u really want that type of girl. just go ahead. i can't compete with them. who am i all this fucking while huh? i am giving up. u nak sgt, pergi la ok. i xtahu ape lagy yang tak cukup dkt i ni. i am not hot or whatever u call it. but u know one thing for sure, i love you just sooo much until i can't see where i'm at. :( what i should feel? how i should react? do u ever think of me? i guess NO! it's obvious.

When I Look At You

everybody needs inspiration,

everybody needs a song,

a beautiful melody when the night's so long,

cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy.

yeah, when my world is falling apart,

when there's no light to break up the dark,

that's when I, I, look at you.

when the waves are flooding the shore,

and i can't find my way home anymore,

that's when I, I, look at you.

when I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth,

you love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon,

right there where they belong,

and I know i'm not alone.

you appear just like a dream to me,

just like kaleidoscope colors that prove to me,

all i need, every breath that i breathe,

don't you know, you're beautiful

you appear just like a dream to me.

home again.

okay. today i woke up with a really loooonnnngggg smile on my face. :) you know why? ahaaa! because i'm homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! yeahh! it feels good! hihi i arrived in jb yesterday evening. i was so damn excited as i passed the skudai tol. hehe after having a short but quality time with my mother, i'm out! meaning i'm going out to catch what i missed since i left this place. surprisingly, many things changed. i mean johor bahru is developing quite well wehh. ouhh i'm impressed! i'm out meeting him. we missed each other soo much! motif aku nak sampai jb cepat adalah sebab dia. :) kan baby kan? hehe. we went out for dinner with idzhar and qiela. they are the best! kami meronda jb dengan girangnya.. haha pergi danga bay melayan lagu di tepi lautan mmg merileks kan. senang cerita, romantik la konon. bweek! in the end, we had a great night. for both of us, the love grow stronger each day.

baby, i love you forever and always. :)