Wednesday, March 31, 2010

the girl.

exam is jus around the corner. & the tense is rising up. i don't know if i can trust you anymore. i've trusted you but you ruin it. i tak pernah terfikir you ada orang lain. you have been good. seriously, i tak sangka. i dah banyak sangat sabar you. you selalu cakap i tak faham you. naeem, selama ni tak nampak ke apa yang i buat untuk you? i sacrifice everything for you. still, you said that i don't understand you. what else do you want? what else that really matters huh?
you said you didn't want me to call you because you wanna be alone. i tak ikut ke? i have been a very very patient girl to you. last night, i really couldn't take it anymore. i broke down because of the girl. i dont really care if she is your friends or what. but i just can't accept that she is rude to me. i have been nice to people okay. put yourself in my shoes naeem. how would you react? dah la you. i penat sgt. makan hati je ni. tolong faham i you. i am letting you go. i depress sgt. i nak exam. you know that kan? i am going far away now. i don't know what's gonna happen now. this very moment, i am giving up! so long ya. i have a future to build. with or without YOU. enough said.

p/s : u have no idea of how much i'd run back to you if you're willing to catch me. its all because I FUCKING LOVE YOU!

Monday, March 29, 2010

# truth 1

sometimes i feel like i don't wanna care anymore. i don't wanna feel love. love has tested me enough. i don't know if i can stay anymore. i really don't right now. i don't think straight. but, i know something. i'm HURT. you never change. just when i started to believe that you will change, you let me down. it's really painful. you never know how i really looking forward to see a new you. someone better. i need you to tell that i have to hold on. you know i'd do anything for you. but it looks like you took advantage of me. i know emma won't compromise with you. i maybe soft to you. i don't know how to get mad. or react when i don't feel right. you should know by now. you never loved me like you loved her. that is one thing i know from the start.

Friday, March 26, 2010

the night.

baby, last night was soo great! :) i had fun. the movie was touching. hehe. i never felt more in love with you like last night. we walked pass so many couples yet, i still feel we are the BEST one. after all these years, i know we're worth it! we watched "REMEMBER ME", yeayyy at last! a romantic movie with you. hihi i'm running out of words now.

last wish ; you'll be mine forever! :)

Thursday, March 11, 2010


what should i do now? i dont think i can compromise anymore. every single minutes i've been checking my phone. and it's still nothing. for the past 48 hours, u have been away. i dont know why but you switched off your phone. was is something i say? i do? or maybe you have something going on that i dont even know about it? sampai bila nak buat i macam ni? sakit tahu tak? i dah terlalu banyak makan hati. sakit hati. semuanya i tahan. this is not the way to test my love. you tested me enough. i have been fighting my heart off for 4 years. is it not enough? if you have anything at all, let me know. we've been good together. or should i say GREAT! i dah give up. i know that statement is selfish. but, what is the right thing? i dah cuba dah untuk jadi yang terbaik. tapi, you tak pernah nampak. thanks alot. despite everything, i love you so much. that is what make me stay this far.

whatever it is, i'll be waiting.
love, please appreciate me. i need strength.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

don't take me for granted.

“Nathanial Hawthorne once wrote: No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face to himself — and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true.”

people change and wear different mask from time to time. when can we see the true faces of them? every mask tells a different story. i just pray that i can see the true faces of him one day. which can change everything of what i am thinking. perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically…to those who hardly think about us in return. accept the facts that everybody have to go through a storm to get a rainbow. just dont take me for granted.

hope it will last.

dear naeem aliff,
what we have today, i hope it will last forever. i really do love you and so much more. you know that you are my every reason to be happy. please stay as long as i want you to be. make me happy and cherish every single thing about me.

xoxo i love you! :)


Dear my love,

When we’re together, I feel perfect. When I’m pulled away from you, I fall apart. All you say is sacred to me. I can’t look away. Promise you’ll stay with me. Please! You don’t have to ask me. You know you’re all that I live for. You know I’d die just to hold you & stay with you. Somehow I might show you that you are my night sky. all this while, I’ve always been right behind you. Now, I’ll be right beside you. So many nights I cried myself to sleep. Now that you love me, I love myself. I never thought that you would come back. I never thought that it would be YOU. I really love you! I really do. Take my hand and never let go of it again.


the reasons why i stay.


p.s i love you.

if i tell you " I LOVE YOU", will you hold it against me?



You ask me what I want this year,
and I try to make this kind and clear...
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days…

listen to your heart.

whatever’s meant to be will always find a way. some things happen in a split second and everything can change from sweet to sour, black to white, flames to dust and lovers to friends.

sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. it’s like being invincible. your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans. big plans. to find your perfect match. the one that completes you. but as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. it’s not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. at the end, when you’re looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. you want to believe that you’re leaving something good behind. you want it all to have mattered. right? all peoples have plans in their life. they made huge mistakes, tiny mistakes or even the right choice. we never know what is ahead of us. whatever it is we have to accept it and face it with dignity and grace.

make a wish and place it in your heart. anything you want, everything you want. do you have it? Good. now believe it can come true. you never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. but if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. you just might get the thing you’re wishing for. the world is full of magic. you just have to believe in it and listen to your heart.

everything that i do comes from the heart. because when i follow the heart, i feel like i can get anything i want. but, sometimes it might ruin you too. hearts do craziest stuff and controls the darkest side of you. trust me!

Monday, March 8, 2010

je t'aime mi amor :)

the reasons why i love you :)

  • 1. YOU know how to put a smile on my face.
  • 2. YOU always hold me like no one before.
  • 3. YOU are the best thing that has ever happen to me.
  • 4. YOU are the only reason I live.
  • 5. YOU hurt me, but I still run back to you.
  • 6. YOU still have my heart after the longest time.
  • 7. YOU managed to fix my broken heart, after you ripped it.
  • 8. YOU taught my heart in a sense that I never knew I had.
  • 9. YOU are my drugs and i'm addicted.
  • 10. YOU still appears in my dreams for the past 4 years.

Basically, I LOVE YOU for who you are baby! :)

Friday, March 5, 2010

i'm yours.

will always will be yours. forever! :)

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