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the longest time

Well hello everyone! :) i know it's been so long since my last post. Im sorry to neglect blogger. Aww. I have been busy with study and life lessons. Oh and one of the reason why i didn't update is because my laptop is not working very well! This post is basically from my phone. Sorry for any lacks in this post. I really need to update this. I will update it sooooonnnn okay babies? :) for god's sake, we are in 2011! My last post was in 2010. Sorry for the delay. I lost my mojo! Will start blogging again soon as i got my mojo back! That's all for now loveliesss.

With love,
Me

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when i'm kissing you my senses come alive,

almost like the puzzle piece i've been trying to find,

falls right into place,

you're all that it takes, my doubts fade away,

when i'm kissing you

i miss you, love! -.-

when things got out of hand.

my love,

i know things have been ugly between us. we are falling apart. we both change in so many ways. i'm sorry for acting the way i shouldn't. but baby, every action have its reasons. it doesn't matter what the reasons are. again baby, sorry i hurt you. things just got out of hand. i started to think for myself. i stop thinking how you feel. i stop caring. i am selfish enough to do such things. maybe this is something we need to rediscover ourselves and the point of having this relationship. start to think back on the things that had done between us, makes me think that my love to you is selfish. i can't bear losing you again. i hurt myself by hurting you. i feel bad about it. i really do. my ego has made me into someone i never wanted to be. a time off is something we need right now. some time on our own will make us think harder, love deeper and miss stronger. i just hope we survive this obstacle. i need you to hold on. please hold on to the things that makes us happy. it what gets me this far. i love you so much. i would do anything to change everything.

sincerely,

leena <3

# another phase in my life

i simply wanna write this post because i need to let out something big in me. it hurts me a lot for this past weeks. i've been holding my breath for you. i did say bad things to you. i've been disrespectful and i really lost my patience. baby, i lost track & i don't know why. since we've been apart, we have changed. i've seen you change in a very good way. i am very happy because that is what i've been praying for. suddenly, distance took it all away. maybe it's US that cannot bare the distance. the way i see it, it really makes us parting even more. since i left JB for KUCHING and since you left JB for KL, we both changed. but i don't think i changed that much. if u wanna know, i changed because u changed. naeem, i am indeed happy with you for the past 3 months. because i've seen u grown up and become someone i've been wishing for. you worked, you took responsibilities. you really put a smile on my face back then. i want you in that way. in that healthy way. with that, i can trust you to be my future. i don't care if you don't earn much. i don't care if i don't get expensive things from you. all i care is US to be happy and stay that way! i think we lost it once again. it kills me here baby! i don't want to enter this phase in this fucking life ever again. i dah pernah lalui ini semua dengan you dulu. kenapa i kena lalui sekali lagi? fyi, this phase the hardest and painful for me. why are we back there? why? back to the very first step in our relationship. i've been praying to not go back there because i see improvements. i see promise. i see love. BUT, clearly. it all never touches your life the way it touches mine. you wanna go back to where we started, fine! let's just go back there but i don't know if i can make it this time. because i don't see the person i used to be anymore. i am not strong. i've been weak naeem. really weak. please understand. i need you to lift me up and go through it once again. just think about it and us out from here. baby, i mean it! we never gonna survive this phase if we stay any longer in it. trust me!

the night.

akak pearl :)

marissa edwin :)

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