when i'm kissing you my senses come alive,

almost like the puzzle piece i've been trying to find,

falls right into place,

you're all that it takes, my doubts fade away,

when i'm kissing you

i miss you, love! -.-

when things got out of hand.

my love,

i know things have been ugly between us. we are falling apart. we both change in so many ways. i'm sorry for acting the way i shouldn't. but baby, every action have its reasons. it doesn't matter what the reasons are. again baby, sorry i hurt you. things just got out of hand. i started to think for myself. i stop thinking how you feel. i stop caring. i am selfish enough to do such things. maybe this is something we need to rediscover ourselves and the point of having this relationship. start to think back on the things that had done between us, makes me think that my love to you is selfish. i can't bear losing you again. i hurt myself by hurting you. i feel bad about it. i really do. my ego has made me into someone i never wanted to be. a time off is something we need right now. some time on our own will make us think harder, love deeper and miss stronger. i just hope we survive this obstacle. i need you to hold on. please hold on to the things that makes us happy. it what gets me this far. i love you so much. i would do anything to change everything.

sincerely,

leena <3

# another phase in my life

i simply wanna write this post because i need to let out something big in me. it hurts me a lot for this past weeks. i've been holding my breath for you. i did say bad things to you. i've been disrespectful and i really lost my patience. baby, i lost track & i don't know why. since we've been apart, we have changed. i've seen you change in a very good way. i am very happy because that is what i've been praying for. suddenly, distance took it all away. maybe it's US that cannot bare the distance. the way i see it, it really makes us parting even more. since i left JB for KUCHING and since you left JB for KL, we both changed. but i don't think i changed that much. if u wanna know, i changed because u changed. naeem, i am indeed happy with you for the past 3 months. because i've seen u grown up and become someone i've been wishing for. you worked, you took responsibilities. you really put a smile on my face back then. i want you in that way. in that healthy way. with that, i can trust you to be my future. i don't care if you don't earn much. i don't care if i don't get expensive things from you. all i care is US to be happy and stay that way! i think we lost it once again. it kills me here baby! i don't want to enter this phase in this fucking life ever again. i dah pernah lalui ini semua dengan you dulu. kenapa i kena lalui sekali lagi? fyi, this phase the hardest and painful for me. why are we back there? why? back to the very first step in our relationship. i've been praying to not go back there because i see improvements. i see promise. i see love. BUT, clearly. it all never touches your life the way it touches mine. you wanna go back to where we started, fine! let's just go back there but i don't know if i can make it this time. because i don't see the person i used to be anymore. i am not strong. i've been weak naeem. really weak. please understand. i need you to lift me up and go through it once again. just think about it and us out from here. baby, i mean it! we never gonna survive this phase if we stay any longer in it. trust me!

the night.

akak pearl :)

marissa edwin :)

pemandu tidak berhemah. HAHA *puke*

had fun with you guys eh? *wink*

weekends in sarawak.

while waiting for the movie, we played this thing. i don't know what they call it. :)

miss pearl and me. :) she is feakin tall wehhh HAHAHA

againn.. meet pearl :) we had fun!

tadaaaa. :)

candid taken by pearl :) mengada tak ada keje kann..

our love balloon :) <3

my saviour :) meet pearl && yana. i had fun with u guys. awesome!

something about us.

i don't know what's got into me these days. really. my emotional is really unstable. i wish that someone knew what is wrong with me. i get mad easily. i cursed. i say things that i don't really remember. i say things i will regret. & the saddest part is i say things that can hurt others. especially him. i am so sorry for my disrespect towards you baby. i really don't know why i acted without any thinking. i say bad words. i am not that type of girl. you know it!

BUT,
baby i need you to know that i am human. i am just a simple girl with flaws. my moods don't always stay the same. i need you to understand that. maybe those littlest thing that u don't know about me. these days i guess i need a little extra attention. especially from YOU. but baby i know u are going through stuff.& im sorry for the way i acted. i haven't been a supportive girlfriend to you. i have been very very selfish. maybe the situation that we face now makes me stupid and selfish. i should be blamed for all this. baby, i just need you to hold on for a little while. please go through it with me. and for god sake, i don't have anyone else! seriously i don't! you have your right to think bad about me but believe me. i only have you!

you must have been thinking that the LOVE is not there anymore. for me, it's always there. it's always been you. it's just that, the situation dragged me into hole that i don't even wanna be at. like i said, i need you to hold on. this is temporary baby! soon it will be over. i promise you.

my love,
maybe this is our challenged. take it and go through it. we will survive. i assure you. we both have issues right now. i understand that. because of that, i think we need to take a time apart. we need time to reinvent ourselves. to know who we really are. i have become someone i don't wanna be. i am disappointed at myself. so, i need time. i know you need time on your own too. sometimes, we need to just listen. one more thing, sayang tolong jangan samakan i dengan emma. i can't bear to hear her name. because some part of me saying you still love her. im sorry for all the wrong doings. it hurts me to hear such things baby. if only u could read everything that i wrote, you would know me even better. find a way to know me well my love. i need you to do it!

i thought distance isn't a barrier for us. but i am totally wrong. it is something for us. i can't be far away from you. maybe because you complete me. despite everything, i love you so much sayang!
you are my whole heart! always have, always will be! :)

sakit nya awakk!

Mon, March 15, 2010 5:38:44 AM
Re: meet up this week?
From:
naem aliff Add to Contacts
To:
Sweety wilkerson
hye sweety..i'm so sorry..now i'm late to read ur msg...rite..?so..sorry again..
so how r u sweety..?ermm..where r u now..?

From: Sweety wilkerson To: Sweetywilkerson380@gmx.comSent: Fri, February 5, 2010 7:03:54 PMSubject: meet up this week?
Hey you.. how u been? remember me from IM.Live ?? hope this is still your email addy :) so guess what? im moving RIGHT near ya in 10 days! Wanna hang out? Im single now too.. i attached my pic incase u forgot about me.. add me on messenger.. i dont use emial much. IM online now.. add me - I prefer A.I,M ---> Y-A_HO-O - grensasi & A_I-M - chanelhiphop